Day 28 Only He October 6, 2019 09:51
The one morning I forget my sunglasses and the sun beams shine brighter than ever. The sun feels warm and bright. This simple phrase repeats in my head. The sun feels warm and bright- over and over- the sun feels warm and bright. And it’s true. The warm and bright sun oddly yet deeply satisfies my soul.
On this sun drenched, shiny, bright 28th healing mile morning I'm talking to God about satisfaction. I'm wondering why, even during the most contented moments, my heart and my head still wonder aimlessly into the land of, only if. Only if I had this...only if I was doing that...only if I could...my life would be better and surely look like... fill in blank.
And then it hits me. It really is true! Not the part about life being better only if but the evidence shown in this world that no man’s eyes are ever satisfied, without the relentless lure to wish or want for more. Oh sure, I have moments, but so often fleeting upon which the daunting desire to have or be or do creeps back into it's deceiving and distorted focus.
"Why God?" I ask.
”Because I am your true satisfaction. Only in me and through me will you be authentically content.” He responds.
Hmmmmm- in Him and through Him. I ponder. I think hard about the times I sense the most contentment. Walking in nature, on the water floating in my kayak, creating, listening to the music I love, hearing the birds sing, as I write these words sitting in front of a crackling fire. I am content- truly satisfied. He is here, in these places.
Upon returning home from the healing 56th mile, the 28th day, times 2 miles per day, equaling 56 total miles so far, I dig a little deeper as my soul longs for more understanding and truth about satisfaction. I find this.
"Satisfy me in the morning with your unfailing love that I may sing for joy and be glad all my days."
"For he satisfies the longing soul and the hungry soul he fills with good things."
Dissatisfied, longing and hungry. I would say that describes me many days. The good news is that I’ve always recognized the joy I do have because of His love and the supernatural ability that joy has to make me strong.
So I conclude if He is my strength then I can wholeheartedly trust that He is also the life force to my longing and discontented soul. And I can be fully confident that when my spirit needs filling, He is more than capable, (he's God for Heaven's sake!) and will do the filling with the things He's claimed for my life as good.
I'm replacing the lifeless phrase, only if with the victorious phrase of true satisfaction, only HE.
And that's a wrap.
'Surprise us with love at daybreak;
then we’ll skip and dance all the day long.'