Day 36 New Decade December 29, 2019 16:30
Christmas 2019 has passed and 2020 hangs in the balance eager once again to stretch me. Not only is this a new year but also a new decade to boot, bringing even more pressure and higher expectations for change.
The approaching new year is notorious for teasing me with grand ideals of fresh perspective and new awareness. Dangling in front of me, better circumstances, ample abundance and grand goal achievement, all placed at the highest ranks of hope for change. The types of changes I'm consistently convinced will make me better, happier and healthier.
If I could just change ___________ I'll be better.
If only I had _____________ then I'll be happier.
If I stop _______ or start doing _________I'd be so much healthier.
I'm convinced that these hearty hopes and eager ideas are assuredly attainable but solely contingent on the mind, body and spirit being in submissive alignment to one another and equally committed to the task at hand. So the daunting question remains: How do I get all three of those essential elements to work in unison in order to succeed in accomplishing my high hopes for the new year- better yet, the new decade?
My journey of healing miles has recently revealed that the answer is found in the most unlikely yet ironically obvious of places. The hard to reach inner places- the places of full surrender and unwavering trust... in the spirit...in my spirit.
I ask God. The Divine. The Holy Spirit within me...
"What do YOU say will make me happy? What do YOU think is necessary for my body to be healthy? What do YOU think I need to add or take away from my life to be better?"
And without question, in His perfect timing, He answers me.
"You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart." He says
"Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, This is the way; walk in it.” He says
" If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you." He says
And then I take the leap of faith and trust that it was HIS voice I heard and I walk in it. With confidence I walk. With faith I trust. And with hope I heal.
When I make the changes he leads me to, because HE told me too, there are lasting results, and fulfilling effects that satisfy my soul- exciting results that start out barely visible and then blossom into beautiful realities of healing and happiness:
I ask him to confirm something I think he's telling me- four deer suddenly walk out of the woods in front of me.
I tell him- I don't know the answer- I hear a woodpecker knock knock knock knock- "keep knocking" he says.
I tell him I wish I could feel closer to Him. Two identical feathers appear floating in unison up to the shoreline where I stand and seek him.
I ask him to help me feel protected. I look up to a lush and thick vine canopy covering that stretches over me from one side of the road to the other.
I ask him to reveal himself to me. I'm startled by the sound of an eagle sitting above me in the tree as another one flies in to join him.
All true and recent recollections of healing mile memories...
This past year has taken me on the healing trip of a lifetime. Just two miles a day in the presence of my creator, walking with high hopes of hearing his voice in my heart is restoring my faith, fulfilling my unspoken longings and mostly bringing me to a place where fear has no power over me.
I'm seeing clearer every mile that these hearty hopes for healthy change in the new year requires the recognition of His amazing provision and abundant blessings from the year I'll leave behind.
Thank you Lord for vultures, fallen branches, exposed roots, monarchs, cardinals, rain, wind, leaves, feathers, fences, chains, vines, rocks, cranes, geese, moss, mist, deer, woodpeckers and Earnest the Eagle.
Happy New Decade!