Day 34 Knock December 3, 2019 15:43
As I continue these healing miles with great expectations, I ask God over and over like a broken record, if he would confirm the truth about any underlying causes for my heart palpitations and uncover the answers to why I keep having them.
Within seconds after asking him that question in hopes of seeking his presence this morning, four beautiful deer appeared, from the surrounding woods, single file, one at a time, out in the road right in front of me. I stopped still in my boot tracks and stared as they peered at Murph and I for a minute and then gracefully crossed. A bright red cardinal flew across the same path directly over them. Something about the sight of these beautiful creatures takes my breath away and seeing them never gets old. I think it's the presence of peace that I am naturally drawn to.
And then we heard, 'knock, knock, knock, knock'...Murph and I puzzled as we looked up and all around but couldn't seem to spy the source of this intriguing racket. We stopped for sometime to try set our sights on this sound that one would assume to be a woodpecker. But for some reason it's frequency did not replicate one. And for the life of us both we could not find it.
And then I heard this message ring loud in my heart.
"Knock Dana. Keep knocking. Knock. Keep seeking me. Knock. Keep asking. Knock. Keep trusting and I will guide you to healing. Don't give up." This sound I heard was the familiar messaging from the Divine and all knowing internal Spirit telling me to keep on seeking Him.
Why on some days is it easy to believe? And then on others- sooo many others, it's easier not to? On the days things feel right?... I feel right and on the days that things don't?... Well...I don't either.